| | Time: | 07:34 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/happy.gif) refreshed |
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| I've decided to try and wipe the slate clean. I'm sick of holding on to past issues and old resentments. I mean, lets face it, most of the bad feelings came about by incredibly petty incidents in the first place so here it is:
To everyone I have been angry with or have disliked or been ignoring for any reason; I'm over it, no bad feelings on my part.
To anyone who is angry with me or dislikes me or resents me for any reason; Post your complaint here and I'll explain my reasoning and we can both get over it and move on.
And to anyone I've ever hurt in any, way, shape or form; I'm very sorry, I have been a tremendous dickhead at times and if I've never apologised for it it's because I never realised or I was too damn stubborn too, and I'm sorry for that as well.
In light of it all here's my new journal:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/lemynaed
I'll still keep this one so I can keep all the old memories and stoof but I think I'm gonna use the new one from now on. Feel free to add me.
Goodbye old shiteiness | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment   |
| | Time: | 08:04 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/sad.gif) cold |
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| | I'd rather not see anyone for a while, so don't call and please stop dropping around uninvited. Thanks. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | RANT! | | Time: | 04:10 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/angry.gif) bitchy |
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| | Man, I am such an assmonkey. I wasn't meaning to act like a whorebag last night, it's just really good catching up with him and I have fun being around him that plus the fact that I only knew four people there and wasn't in the mood to make new friends means that people (one in particular who I much dislike because she's a judgemental bitch when she very obviously has no right to be) think that I'm some kind of pathetic slut! It's not fair, I do not see why I'm not allowed to feel comfortable and be friend-like with my exboyfriend, I mean c'mon! I hit on all my mates when I'm drunk, and it's okay coz they're just mates. Bah, yet again I let my guard down and just do what I want and everyone shits on me for it. Broadcast to the world: I love my boyfriend very much and I worked hard to get him, I'm not about to screw everything up by cheating or anything. The ex is just a friend, who it's fun to laugh about the past with or to take the shit out of. So get the hell off my back nasty little individuals who think they can make assumptions when they don't know me. GRAHGH! This isn't really directed at anyone, just venting. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Some silly song in my head | | Subject: | I am a cheerleader | | Time: | 06:17 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/energetic.gif) bouncy |
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| | Congrats to all the spiffy lil monkies who got through their exams and good luck to all my gorgeous lil chickens who have their final exams tomorrow! I love you all! GO TEAM! | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 10:08 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/confused.gif) confused |
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| | Just watched Saved, it made me so angry, I sat on the end of my bed balling my eyes out and punching my doona. I think whatever happened has affected me more than I previously realised. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 07:09 pm | | Current Mood: | confused |
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| | um im feeling really bad but i cant describe it its like being lonely or something only at the same time i dont want to see anyone i dont feel as though i like anyone or anything but then its like something is missing i dont know the only good thing in my life right now is zack its kinda sad only having one thing in your life that you like sigh i dunno why im still awake | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I'm getting short but debilitating migrains every day, usually 2-5 of them and they last between 15 minutes and 2 hours each time. I'm also cold-sweating in my sleep again which is irritating as fuck because I hate having to get up every 3 hours and wipe my body down with a towel and then change my top sheet, my pillow and the side of the bed I'm sleeping on.
It's really upsetting me. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| I'm really crap. I luff luff lufff my boy!
I gave him his Warlock on Friday and he saw Killswitch last night and he's happier than I've seen him in ages. I knew he was feeling pretty miserable but it didn't hit me just how miserable until he walked in the door last night and grinned at me and I realised I hadn't seen that grin in weeks. Obviously him being down was affecting me and our relationship more than I thought because I feel marginally good for the first time in a while and not at all like I'm waiting for the axe over our happy little relationship to fall. YAY FOR STUFF! Even stuff that makes me pathetic and squishy. I'm still sad he went home though, hopefully he's enjoying his birthday present.
In other news; a fly just tried to crawl up the premier's nose whilst he was being interviewed, hehehe, go lil fly! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 02:45 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/scared.gif) distressed |
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| Yeah, thanks everyone for giving a fuck.
New Tally = 86 hrs, 10 hours sleep, An entire bottle of vodka to get 3 hours sleep last night. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | 70 hours, Approximately 7 of them were spent sleeping,29 of them have been spent working, 6 have been spent being pissed, 6 spent cleaning, 5 spent running errends, and the rest have been spent mooching around the house or TRYING to sleep. My mother knows this, yet for some reason I am SERVING at her freaking birthday party. I was supposed to just be here and chat to her mates but only my cousin is interested in any kind of conversation with me and even she seems reluctant. So as things would have it I ended up doing, well, waitressing. AM. NOT. IMPRESSED! It may be her birthday but if you ask me it's a tiny little bit selfish of her asking a girl who is so tired she's having auditory hallucinations, blood noses, back spazms, burning skin visual hallucinations and blood noses to be your buttmonkey all night. Meh, I'll do it anyway, but she owes me. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | bored | | Subject: | Bored | | Time: | 05:14 pm | | Current Mood: | bored |
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| BOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBORED.
In conclusion; Bored. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Bizarre T.V. background music. | | Subject: | Random spewage! | | Time: | 12:30 am | | Current Mood: | sick |
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| I had a headache today, and then I got ready to go out and it got worse, and then I had a 5 minute lye down and then it got better and then it got a lil shitty again, so I ate some dinner and then...I spewed all over the toilet and the wall and my hair.
It was random. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 01:14 pm | | Current Mood: | confused |
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| This is a rather unfortunate event, I shall now proceed to make a list of things exboyfriends should not do.
( 'The List' )
Lesigh I am fairly confused by this strange and somewhat horrible turn of events. | | comments: 9 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Something painful of my mothers | | Subject: | SWB | | Time: | 08:58 pm | | Current Mood: | cranky |
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| | BAH! I was quite happily asleep nekked on my 'puter room couch until my mother saw fit to turn her shit music up very loudly and cackle and squeal with her imbecilic friends, I mean c'mon woman! I've had one day off work in the last 10, I'm bloody exhausted and when I try and catch a bit of shuteye you and your drunken posse selfishly interrupt my naptime! ARHGH! Now I have a massive headache and a rather cranky disposition, also peeved that I can't have a smoke or get dindins because the spanish inquisition is waiting for me downstairs. 'Hi Emmy!!!! Come sit down! How are you? What are you doing? How's work? Who's the boyfriend? How's the boyfriend? How's the sex?' Well maybe the last one wont be put so straightforwardly and there will be much slurring of words and drunken screaming but that's basically how it will go. God how I hate Secret Womens Business. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 08:09 pm | | Current Mood: | confused |
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| | I declare my phrase for the rest of tonight and the entirety of tomorrow to be 'WTF MATE!?' | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | THE playlist | | Time: | 12:43 am | | Current Mood: | guilty |
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| | After thinking it over for a while I've decided I do blame myself. Not because that's what they always do in movies but because I am, in part at very least, to blame. I should have seen it, I should have done all that I could but I wanted to believe it wasn't happening. I'm so self-absorbed I wanted to think that if I was getting better everyone else would be too. I hate myself for not seeing what Max could, for deliberately not seeing what Max could. I used to be a so much better person, I used to be THERE. Why didn't I try harder!? | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | He's inspired me. It's so strange, for as long as I can remember I've never wanted to do anything with my life, I was simply existing not particularly interested in experiencing anything. But in 6 short months he's somehow managed to make me see a point to it all, I'm excited about life, possibly for the first time ever. The only downside to this is the fact that I MAY, possibly, want to do too much...ie EVERYTHING! I want to experience EVERYTHING! For giving this to me I am eternally greatful to him. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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